Let my life be a testament to you, my God. Let my face and my body and my words declare my dependence on you. May you lift me above, beyond these feelings... just for a time. Then ,with My Love beside me, help me to allow these feelings to take over, dwelling, living within them until the felt sharpness of their jabs begin to fade, and only trust in you remains.

Another thing....

OK.

So I'm going along with my day... two long meetings out of the way, trying to re-focus on what I need to accomplish before I can call it a day... and all of the sudden my momentum got completely derailed! The door to my office closes, with someone besides me on the inside of that door, and a hushed conversation ensues. All of the sudden a carrot dangles before my face taunting me to believe that it is possible... very barely possible, but possible nonetheless, to reach it.

After her brief words and shock and a stuttered response on my side, we concluded our conversation over with a hug. I vowed internally to put it aside... not think about it... not let my thoughts dwell on the possibilities (for the ability for me to reach the carrot is not within my control), but the spoken words keep coming back. They lie at the edge of my consciousness... begging for attention.

So here I am, giving them all the attention that I am allowed... a few vague words and expressed consternation.