Experimenting.

I think I might now actually be ready to start blogging. Hard to tell, we'll just see how it goes.

How does one try to fit in all that we need to do, should do, are supposed to do in this life?
How can I work at two careers, love my husband, look after my mother, improve my health, exercise three times a week, keep my house clean and organized, contribute to the health of my community, have regular times of rest and relaxation, and maintain a vital, growing relationship with God?

How is this even possible?

Right now I don't even know if there is any way that this list can even be possible. Because really, this list, once the day gets underway, doubles, even triples.... Cars need to be repaired, groceries bought, gifts shopped for, Candlelight and Tupperware parties attended, bills paid, licenses renewed... need I go on?

Sometimes I think that the only reason that I am even standing up, is that my husband helps to pull a little of this weight. (Very, very little of the actual list... but his love certainly sustains my being... ok, that sounded pretty sticky, but it's undeniable.)

Seriously, what is the ideal? What is my ideal life? Can I really overcome those feelings of exhaustion and defeat after a long, long day in order to clean the house, go for a power walk, e-mail friends, moisturize my face, pay some bills, call my mom, read a few chapters in my Bible, and make love to my husband?

To quote a favorite movie,

"I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this question out into the void. Goodnight dear void."